Cracked, But Not Broken

"There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in."

This is one of my favorite quotes.It hangs in my bathroom where I can see it everyday. It's from Leonard Cohen's Anthem Lyrics. I like it because it's all about self-acceptance. That's something I got a good dose of today when I went dress shopping for the wedding I'm going to next week. Ugh...

I'm pretty much right smack in between sizes right now so getting anything to fit properly is pretty much a nightmare. Nine stores and nine million dresses later, I did come up with something...well, actually three somethings. I really loved one dress, kind of liked a second, and the felt like my third choice was just okay. I coudn't decide at the store, so I decided I would solict an expert's opinion (my husband) and return the other two.

After a brief fashion show, Chris picked my #2 choice. He thought it flattered my figure the best and I could tell by the expression on his face that he thought I looked really good in it. That's why I love him. Even though he knew I really wanted him to like my first choice the best, he didn't. I think "too prom dress" was the phrase he used :) Thank goodness for his honesty. He's always got my back!

I would SO love to lose like 20 pounds by next week (even if it was only water wieght!). I know I could partake in a hard core fast and do it, but I REFUSE to give in to that kind of thinking. My body isn't perfect, but it is what it is right now. And it IS getting healthier every single day! I may always have cracks, but I'm NOT broken. Better health is my ultimate goal, right? At least I keep telling myself that :)

Today's Food Log:
* NOT RAW

Meal 1
1 cup vanilla tea
8 ounces Green Juice
Ingredients: kale, red chard, 3 carrots, 3 stalks celery

Meal 2
Salad
Ingredients: 1 head romaine lettuce, 1 spicy boca chicken patty*, 2 ounces raw cheddar, 8 black olives*,2 Tbsp caesar dressing*, handful of alfalfa sprouts, 1/4 cup raw sunflower seeds.
Meal 3
Tortilla wrap
Ingredients: 1 Ezekiel 4:9 tortilla, 1 tbsp of mellow brown rice miso, handful of sprouts, red pepper, 1/2 jalapeno, peelings from 1 carrot, 1/4 sliced cucmber, 6 black olives, chopped red onion.

Soup
Ingredients: 1 Tbsp miso broth with 1/4 cup of veggie pulp from today's green juice.

Snack (Dessert!)
1 Washington apple cubed, 1 tsp. of honey*, 10 pecan halves.

32 ounces water, plus 3 tsp of Ultimate Miracle Green
28 ounces of water
1 cup chai green tea

Eating healthy is a funny thing. After only a couple of weeks of eating 80-90% raw, I don't crave ANY simple carbs anymore. I mean nothing. No chips, no bread, no cereal. AND no sugar. Nada. Zippo. Zilch. I guess that's because I am eating plenty complex carbs with all of these veggies. It's just so wierd to not crave things like that anymore. They honestly don't even make my radar. All I seem to crave is more vegetables. What I probably NEED is more fruit.