Juice Feast-Day 52-53 (Recap)

From Heaven to HELP ME!!!!!

Day 52 went just great. I was really tired in the evening and didn't have much to report, so I skipped blogging about it. And then today happened....

Today (day 53) was by far the hardest day I've had so far on this feast. I was at the beach with the dog and was suddenly overcome by heavy feelings of depression and sadness. I had to leave immediately and was a sobbing mess the entire way home. My poor hubby, he is so understanding! He kept asking me what was wrong and I just didn't have an answer for him. I really had no idea! For the few hours I couldn't shake the terrible feelings of sadness and despair. All I could do was cry and all I wanted to do was quit feasting.

About two hours into it, I went straight to the cupboard and grabbed a single potato chip (my favorite comfort food). First I licked it, then I put it in my mouth and chewed it ever so slowly. It tasted divine! Divine! I couldn't do it, though. I couldn't swallow it. I just knew it wouldn't make me feel better in the long run. I'm a firm believer that the best way to deal with bad feelings is to drive head on through them So, I went over to the sink and spit it out-never swallowed any of it. Then I washed my mouth out with water until not a crumb of chip remained. LOL! Whew!
Finally, I ended up taking a shower to try to wash off some of the bad energy. All the while I began talking myself down from the ledge.

You know how the Universe has a way of sending you an Angel of comfort just when you need one the most? My sister-in-law (one of my favorite people in the whole wide world) called and left me a voice mail sometime during my crisis. I didn't get the message, so I called her back. Her voice was just what I needed to hear. Her energy was really positive and encouraging and she told me how proud she was of me. It really cheered me up and reminded me of how far I've come. Thanks Kathy! I love you!

So, in the end, I did prevail (with a little help from my hubby and my sister-in-law). But DANG!, I thought I was a goner for sure! Those were some intense feelings! I have definitely gone into a deeper level of emotional detox. I wasn't prepared for how fast it overwhelmed me. I hope that's all I see of that kind of thing for a while!


Juicy Diary-Days 52-53

(Yesterday's Juices & Supplements)

32 oz water
32 oz cantaloupe/strawberry + MSM + B12
32 oz water
8 oz coconut water
64 oz green juice (kale, parsley, romaine, spinach, dandelion greens, rainbow chard, red bell pepper, spirulina, jalapeno, onion, carrots, celery, cucumber, garlic).

Comments: Today was a rather dull, flat day, and nothing much stands out...except the wrenching stomachache I had later in the evening. I've been a bit confused as to how much spirulina to take. Mine comes in cellulose capsules of 500 mg each. What I usually do is open the caplets and dump the spirulina right into my green juice. Since there is no "standard recommended daily dosage", I searched the Internet to find out what other people were taking. I ended up upping the dosage to 3000 mg. I don't know if it was that, the coconut water I had right before my green juice, or what. But holy moly! I had a horrible stomachache ALL night long and into the early morning.

(Today's Juices & Supplements)

32 oz water
34 oz strawberry/blueberry/raspberry/blackberry (Yummy!!!)
25 oz water
48 oz green juice (kale/parsley/spirulina/carrots/cucumber/celery/chard/red lettuce/spinach/red bell pepper/jalapeno/garlic/onion).

I really shorted myself on the juice and water today due to the funk I was in. Tomorrow is a new day, and I look forward to feeling cheerful and full of resolve once again.